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It’s here.

Just under ten years ago, I started writing the first few chapters of The Sentient. I started with some general ideas of a story, not sure where it would end up, but pretty quickly, I realized I needed a destination to write towards.

And while taking a break from writing to make some tea, I found it.

It struck me with vivid force – the final, climactic scene that would come in the third and final book of Amira’s story. It played in my mind’s eye with cinematic intensity. The lighting in the room, the sounds of the character’s voices, the tears falling onto a cold floor… I could see it all.I smiled and kept writing. I still had a lot to figure out – plot turns to develop, stakes to add, characters to create – but I knew where it was all leading to. And in the most challenging, frustrating parts of the writing process, that kept me going.

When I finally got to write that pivotal scene, I had to take several deep breaths. It was a triumphant and bittersweet moment, to finally reach the moment that had been playing in my head for so long. Would it live up to the hype I’d constructed in my head? Could I do it justice? But it flowed out of me easily. I’m very stubborn in some aspects of the writing process – I have to write every scene in order. I won’t let myself skip ahead to that final chapter before it’s time. And in this case, I think it served me well.

Ok, dramatics aside – I hope you all enjoy the conclusion to Amira’s story. I set myself up for a difficult job in The Transcendent – a lot of loose ends to tie up, character arcs that needed to reach their final destination, and a conclusion that I wanted to be moving and satisfying. And do all this on deadline, while juggling a demanding day job and a personal life. But I’m proud of the outcome.
The Transcendent picks up right where the second book, The Emergent, ends… mild spoilers ahead, so proceed with caution. Amira’s in danger, of course – she wouldn’t be Amira if she wasn’t. Her complicated, twisting relationship with her former mentor is broken beyond repair. She needs to find Nova, the first human clone, before he does. But does Nova want to be found?

You can buy The Transcendent on Amazon, Barnes and Noble, select bookstores and Flame Tree Press’s web site. Or request a copy at your local library! That benefits authors and readers alike.

Cheers,
Nadia

 It's happening. The sequel to The Sentient - The Emergent - will be hitting bookstores on May 17th.  It has an AMAZING cover (evidence provided below) and I can't wait for readers to see where Amira's adventures will take her. A lot happened at the end of The Sentient (no spoilers) that has put Amira in a difficult, complicated situation, in which she has to navigate an endless tightrope with people who have more power than her. It's been fun and challenging to write - she's traumatized from the events of book one and as a result, makes some questionable decisions. But she's also grown and evolved tremendously since she was first assigned to the Pandora project, with a more skeptical, nuanced understanding of her world. And of course, there is plenty of action and cool holomentic mind reading. 

It's been a busy, turbulent couple of months for me - my day job has been incredibly busy, I started living with my partner and I adopted a dog (Petunia - LOOK AT THAT FACE). There are days where I constantly feel overwhelmed and struggling for time.  Work, exercise, cooking, cleaning, socializing with friends and family and, of course, writing - there just aren't enough hours in the day for everything I need to do. I know I'm not alone or unique in this, and that many people have it far worse (I can't imagine writing and looking after kids, for example). I could probably write an entire post about the unsustainable work-life model many of us are forced to navigate. But ultimately, we can only do what we can with the time we have - I've been trying to be kinder to myself when I fail to accomplish everything I want to over a weekend, or when I have to skip that afternoon run and order takeout. I do my best to balance my many commitments, with an emphasis on the one that's most important to me... writing! It gives me joy, purpose and meaning to tell stories, no matter what else life throws at me. 

And on that note, without further ado... THE COVER!

Preorder The Emergent here or here. 

I've got a book series to finish, but there's always time to sneak in a short story or two in my writing schedule. Short stories can really help with my writing process for novels. It's a way to test out new characters and ideas without too much commitment, as well as a way to feel productive. When you've got 100,000 words and intensive rounds of edits ahead of you for a novel, squeezing in a short story can make writing feel less daunting. 

So I'm thrilled that in the middle of finishing the sequel to The Sentient, I spent a few weekends on a short story about nanotech, and a woman who codes when she's not causing the good kind of trouble. I'm even more thrilled that it's appearing in Clarkesworld Magazine this month - it's been a longstanding publishing goal of mine to have a byline in Clarkesworld. I've submitted stories to the magazine in the past, and happy to have my first acceptance!

This story, like The Bahrain Underground Bazaar (F&SF Magazine), is set in a futuristic version of Bahrain. It's a place that is modernizing but in transition, with a population that is divided on the country's growing experiments with nanotechnology. Manal is an ambitious programmer at a ministry office that deals with nanotechnology - she's been regulated to the cosmetics department, using nanotech as a beauty treatment, but wants to apply her talents on bigger challenges. When a popular public figure comes into the building seeking cancer treatment, Manal jumps at the opportunity to advance herself... but develops a more complicated relationship with her patient, and the national dialogue around nanotechnology. 

I wanted to create a hopeful story that wrestled with the complex nature of cultural shifts. The Middle East is a place that is often characterized in western media as backward and fearful of modernization. It is expected to reform, and quickly. But societal shifts in other parts of the world haven't happened overnight - there is a constant tug and pull, a movement and a backlash. I saw this firsthand in the years I lived in Saudi Arabia and Bahrain. Manal is a female programmer who has embraced the modern direction the island is taking, but is otherwise apolitical - until events force her to take a stand. 

How does it end? You can read it here and find out!

I'm excited to share that The Sentient will officially be part of a trilogy! My publisher, Flame Tree Press, has acquired the two sequels I've always planned for The Sentient. I'm thrilled, and have been hard at work on the sequel since the early winter. Watch this space for more specific details - the official publication dates, the cover reveals, and more!

I've known early on how I want Amira's story to end for a while. The final scenes in Book Three have been playing in my mind for years, from those first weeks when the story started to take shape. But before I can get there, the story continues in Book Two (I have a working title, but will share when it becomes an official title). Sequels have their challenges and benefits. I love being able to revisit all of these characters that I know so well, and to spend more time in Westport, Aldwych and the wider world of The Sentient. In that sense, drafting the sequel has been a lot easier than the first book - I know the plot, the world building is highly developed, and I know exactly where I need things to go. The story has just... flowed. It's great. 

But there are challenges with sequels, and they come up in the editing process. Ensuring continuity from The Sentient - keeping the details consistent, from character eye colors to the train lines through Westport, is important. There's also a tricky balance to be struck between recalling the events from Book One and not dwelling too long on them - readers need to reminded of the past, but the plot must also move forward. Little details matter. MINOR SPOILER AHEAD in the next paragraph....

- Remember how Amira got her ear bitten off? I better mention that at some point early in Book Two, or it'll appear as though that traumatic detail has been forgotten. That's just one of many examples that require me to be a little more meticulous than a standalone novel might require. 

And now that I've finished the first draft of the sequel... some minor teasers!

• Amira starts the story in a bad place. The events in The Sentient have had a cumulative effect on her psychologically - a difficult situation for a therapist to be in. Her blind attachment to her found family and the culture of Westport has been challenged, leaving her adrift and uncertain. And there is legal fallout from the events in the Soma that she'll have to deal with.
• Rozene is also adjusting to motherhood and the sudden scrutiny of being the world's first cloned person. She has a very strong bond with her clone, Nova, and isn't sure if she's just experiencing the typical bond between parent and child... or something more. (If you've read the end of The Sentient, you probably know what that means)
• The story takes Amira out of the bubble of North America and she encounters a faith-based system different from both the Cosmics and the compounds. 
• Remember the Osiris station? The mysterious, shadowy, distant research site in space that Amira has always been curious about? She - and you - will get answers on that station's purpose.
• A big theme in the sequel is atonement for the past, as characters wrestle with the choices they made and what it means for their legacy. Do the ends justify the means, or are there some crimes for which there can be no redemption? As Amira becomes more enmeshed with Tony Barlow and the complicated world of the Cosmics, she learns more about their dark history.

I can't wait to share more information about the sequels as they move further toward publication! Until then, it's back to work. 

Nadia

I'm incredibly excited to have one of my short stories featured in The Magazine of Fantasy and Science Fiction, an excellent sci fi journal I've subscribed to for years and submitted several stories to in the past. "The Bahrain Underground Bazaar" is in the November/December 2020 issue, which is available under the links at the end of this post. What better way to close out this crazy year than with a story about virtual immersion, terminal illness and confronting our fear of death? It's about as on-brand for 2020 as a story can get.

Some fun facts about "The Bahrain Underground Bazaar":

• I completed the first draft in a single day, which is a first for me. The idea came and the story just flowed out of me from there. Some editing and tweaking followed several days later, but less so than other short stories I've written. (That doesn't mean that "better" stories require less editing - just that this was one where the first draft came out unusually well-formed).
• The central idea of a bazaar/market for dark virtual immersion experiences (where a person can plug in to a virtual chamber and relive someone else's suffering, a sexual encounter or death) came from going back to visit the island I grew up in, Bahrain, as an adult. Every time I return to see family, the island changes so much. New buildings, new neighborhoods, a growing economy and more people. It made me think about the old, traditional gold souk in the downtown part of the capital and what it could look like in a few decades. Would something that traditional survive all this change, or would it be repurposed in some new way? From there, I thought of the concept of a seedy, underground market that combined a traditional bazaar setting with a more futuristic technology... that still serves our primal human drive of curiosity.
• The protagonist is not based on a particular person, but I grew up with many strong-willed, older women in my family who protected their independence fiercely as they aged. Getting older was hard for them, both in terms of the burden they felt it placed on their families as well as the looming prospect of death. I imagined how I would respond if this kind of technology were available to me and took the story from that launching point. 
• The story eventually shifts to Petra, Jordan - one of my favorite places on Earth. An ancient city carved out of rock in southern Jordan, it retains its magic even with crowds of tourists everywhere. A beautiful place that really makes you feel like you're traveling back in time. It felt like the perfect place for my protagonist to have a final adventure and come to grips with her fears. 

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“Historically, pandemics have forced humans to break with the past and imagine their world anew. This one is no different. It is a portal, a gateway between one world and the next. We can choose to walk through it, dragging the carcasses of our prejudice and hatred, our avarice, our data banks and dead ideas, our dead rivers and smoky skies behind us. Or we can walk through lightly, with little luggage, ready to imagine another world. And ready to fight for it.”

• Arundhati Roy, “The Pandemic is a Portal”, Financial Times

It’s been a while since my last post and the world has changed in so many ways – a pandemic, and now a growing movement to address racial injustices and police brutality. I fully support the latter, while remaining anxious about the former. A second wave is likely coming as we reopen businesses and let our guard down – even if the protests (which are necessary) weren’t underway. These are uncertain, eventful times. It’s a time of reckoning and reflection. This pandemic has laid all our failings bare – our economic inequalities, our racism, our disregard for the environment, our treatment of animals and our relationships with each other.

This pandemic has made me examine my own priorities, and I hope it has for others as well. I’m luckier than most – I have a secure government job that allows me to work from home. I have my health and freedom. I’m keeping a low profile and practicing social distancing. I’ve had my stresses as well – a family member got sick with Covid and took eight weeks to recover. I have family on the other side of the world and it feels powerless to be so far away from them. But we can talk and remain connected through technology, and I know this will end. I’ll see my family and friends again.
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On the writing front, this pandemic has made me very productive. With fewer distractions and competing priorities, I’ve had plenty of time after work to focus on my latest novel and keep the wheels turning. I’ve seen a lot of posts on social media from other writers who are too stressed and overwhelmed to be productive writers – and while I can empathize, I told myself at the start of the lockdown that I wasn’t going to be consumed by outside forces beyond my control. I can’t control the terrible stories in the news, but I can do my part to socially distance – and to channel my energy into writing. If anything, this pandemic has become fuel for new ideas. I can escape into other, better worlds and use stories to grapple with the issues affecting us now.
An update from the last few months:

1. I finished the first draft of my third novel, Patronage. It’s now out with several beta readers, who are providing some excellent feedback. I’m really proud of this one, even though there’s more editing to do. It’s fast-paced, with colorful characters and vivid settings, but also carries some themes that I think will resonate with a lot of readers – independence in an increasingly closed world, our addiction to the internet and the proliferation of misinformation and propaganda. I’m excited to dive back into edits, starting next week.
2. One of my short stories has been picked up by the Magazine for Fantasy and Science Fiction (F&SF). I’m thrilled – it’s one of my favorite sci fi journals, one I’ve subscribed to for years, and I can’t wait to see it in print. Once I know when it’ll appear, I’ll devote a separate blog post to the story, which is a very personal one drawn from my time in Bahrain.

 
These are difficult times, but it’s important to hold on to your purpose, to lean onto the things that anchor you. For me, writing is my anchor. It gives me joy and helps me make sense of the world – and imagine other ways the world could be. Whatever else is going on, I plan to keep writing. 

When you first get a book deal, a number of things happen. You dance around the house, pop open a bottle of champagne, and, still humming with joy, dive into less glamorous activities, like paperwork and contract details. There’s often a significant waiting period between the moment you get “the call” (mine was on April Fool’s Day, of all days) and when you can officially share the announcement with family, friends and the wider world. It’s a wonderful moment, when people who’ve been following your writing journey for years finally hear that your dreams are becoming reality. And, of course, they have questions:

• Is your book going to be at my nearest Barnes and Noble?
• Did you design your cover?
• When does your book come out?
• What do you mean “in a year”? Is that normal?
• No, seriously, a WHOLE YEAR?

Most people who aren’t in the writing community are surprised by the realities of publishing. I certainly was, before I started attending writer’s conferences and engaging with fellow authors. Since my first novel, The Sentient, found a home with Flame Tree Press, I’ve found myself answering the same questions over and over again. As a result, I’ve decided to put together the most common questions I’m asked about the process to publication, along with the answers that may surprise.

(Caveat: this post is concerned primarily with traditional publishing, either through a Big Five house or smaller indie publisher. Self-publishing has a different process with different timelines and challenges)

Congrats! When will your book hit the shelves?
A few months after I announced my book deal, some family friends asked me if I could bring a few copies to a Thanksgiving dinner. They were shocked to learn that my book wasn’t going to be out for another year, and that there wasn’t even a cover to share. But if you’re going the traditional publishing route, this is the norm. In fact, a year is the minimum timeframe between your contract getting signed to your book being released. For many Big Five imprints, the release date could be as far as two years out.
Why is this the case? A lot of things need to happen before a book is ready to go to print. There are developmental edits between the author and the editor, a process that can take many months, depending on what kind of changes are needed. The book’s assigned editor may want entire characters removed, scenes rewritten, plot elements restructured. Then, there’s the more detailed copy edits, to check for grammatical issues and typos. Books need to be sent to production, where Advanced Reader Copies (ARCs) are created and sent out to early reviewers. There’s marketing and promotion. And between all of this, yours is not the only book the publisher is working on. Editors and other publishing employees are busy people, juggling multiple books at different stages of development. All of this takes time – and patience.

Where can I find your book? Will it be at B&N, my local bookstore, etc.?
No clue, especially ahead of release. Online ordering is straightforward, but physical distribution is something that the publisher’s sales team manages with distributors. All books have to fight for space on the shelf – both with other new releases and more established titles. Big Five publishers will have more access to bookstores, while smaller, indie publishing houses may not get their books everywhere.
I don’t know exactly where my book will end up – but social media is full of authors wandering into a bookstore and discovering, to their joy, their own work on the shelf. If I find The Sentient out in the wild, expect the same!

How much control do you have over the book cover, design, book blurb, etc.?
If a book is self-published, the author has full creative control over their cover design and other aspects of the book – at their own expense. With traditional publishing, a team at the publishing house will design the book cover. It is, however, a collaborative process between the team and the author. The author may make suggestions or share ideas for the cover and will have a chance to give input before it’s finalized. Publishers want their authors to be happy and will work with them as much as possible to reach a shared vision. At the end of the day, however, if both parties can’t get on the same page, the publisher will make decisions based on what they think is best for the book’s success. They are professionals, and know what works and what doesn’t.
In my case, my publisher came out with a cover that I LOVED, and they also incorporated feedback that my agent and I gave during the process. The end result is a much better cover than I could ever have come up with, even after years of living and breathing my novel.

Are you going on a book tour?
Book tours are not the norm for a debut author and are becoming less prevalent in general. They’re more likely to happen when you have a big-name author with a high-profile book from a big publishing house, but for the average author, they’re not the best way to move sales. With so many virtual options to promote and learn about new books (virtual blog tours, social media, Goodreads, etc.), it makes less sense to spend the time and money traveling around the country to sell a book. An author is more likely to do local events, such as a reading and signing at a neighborhood bookstore, especially when they have personal and professional obligations to deal with. Which brings me to my last question…
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When are you quitting your job?
I can’t tell you how many people, at work and beyond, ask me this question out of the gate. Don’t get me wrong, it would be wonderful to wake up every morning and have the entire day to just WRITE. But writers who make enough money to focus on their projects full-time are the exception, not the norm. Especially with new authors – there’s that occasional success story of a six-figure book deal on a debut, but most new authors earn MUCH smaller advances, or no advance at all. Publishing is risky and new authors are unproven. And for more established authors, it still takes a lot of sales and growing readership before it becomes economically sound to quit that dreaded day job.
Even a six-figure advance, impressive as it may sound, will only get you so far. Here’s why – you have to earn off that advance before seeing additional revenue from book sales. So, if your advance is $1,000.00, you need to earn that much in author royalties (a percentage of the book’s price) against that advance before additional royalty earnings kick in. If that advance is for multiple books, that could take some time. It could also never earn out, meaning that you, the author, don’t earn any more money from sales and may have a disappointed publisher. Your next advance could be lower, as a result. There are no guarantees in publishing and a lot of uncertainty, which makes it smart to hang on to a steady paycheck as long as possible – even if it’s hard to work a day job, live your life and find time to write that next novel.  
So in short, I won’t be quitting my day job any time soon. If and when I do, that’ll be announced here to much fanfare and popping of champagne corks!
Any other questions? Feel free to leave them in the comments.

I can finally share some incredible news, years of hard work and perseverance in the making… I HAVE A BOOK DEAL!
My science fiction novel, The Sentient, will be published by Flame Tree Press in June 2020. It’s the first full-length novel I wrote, I’m incredibly proud of it, and thrilled beyond words that it’s going to be out in the world.
It’s surreal. So much came before this – the idea, the first draft, editing, rewriting, more editing, conferences, pitches, rejection, finding a literary agent, revising the novel again, spending an agonizing year on submission with more rejections… and here we are. A moment I’ve dreamed about for much of my life, but one I never fully trusted to happen. There are no guarantees in publishing, after all. Writers remind ourselves of that constantly, to brace for the next round of setbacks and rejection.
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Only days before I got “the call” from my literary agent, I was talking to a friend about being on submission. It was approaching a year, and we’d had this same conversation many times before.
“Anything new with your book?” she asked.
“Still on sub. Another editor passed, but it’s still out with others.”
“Oh, bummer. Well, I’m sure you’ll hear good news soon.”
Normally, I just nodded at the usual words of encouragement, but this time, I was in a more resigned state of mind. I told her that I had started to accept the fact that The Sentient, my first book, may never be published. That it just may not be the right book to find the right publisher at the right time, and I’d have to put my faith in my next novel.
One day later, I got “the call.” On April Fool’s Day, of all days. I knew it wasn’t a prank – a person’s publishing dreams aren’t prank material. When I heard the news, my heart pounded and a strange sensation followed, of a weight being lifted from my chest. I had an offer for a book deal! It was finally happening. It felt surreal but right at the same time - a moment I had imagined in my head for a long time, and here I was. 
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Of course, I couldn’t just blast the news out to the world. Many steps follow that life-changing call – contract negotiations, following up with other publishers, signatures and announcements. If there’s one truism about the traditional publishing route, it’s that patience is key.
Patience, and perseverance. At each stage in the publishing process, there’s always a new ladder to climb. Take my last two years... after I finished my novel, all my energy was focused on getting a literary agent. Once I signed with an agent, I was overjoyed… but soon, my mind shifted to a new source of anxiety – whether the book would sell. Now that it’s sold, I have a new tier of anxieties:

• Will it be successful?
• Will it be successful enough for a series?
• What kind of reviews will I receive?
• Will my next book sell after this one?

And so on. The challenges and doubts never go away, no matter what stage you are at in the writing process. There will always be new hurdles, new highs and lows. The rejection never stops, the setbacks don’t evaporate into a fog of writing bliss. That’s why perseverance and resilience are so critical in this business… along with the ability to celebrate those moments of success.
For those of you on a similar path, at whatever stage... keep writing, and never give up!

One of my short stories, The Hidden Ones, has been accepted for the April edition of The Write Launch! You can read this magical realism story set in Bahrain, here:
​https://thewritelaunch.com/2018/03/the-hidden-ones/. 

​Once again, I'm skipping with joy at another turning point in my writing career - publishing a short story! Like my literary agent search, I went through the usual ups and downs with a number of my short stories - submissions, rejections, rinse and repeat. But I kept at it, polished my stories in places where they needed work, and got smarter about where and how to submit. And finally, a breakthrough. 

​This particular story is especially rewarding to publish, given how personal it is. Most of my writing is straight science fiction - spaceships, future technology, parallel universes. The Hidden Ones is more immediate, drawing from Middle Eastern folklore and my own upbringing in Bahrain. 

​As a result, I thought I'd share a few personal details behind this story:

• ​If you grew up in the West, you have probably heard of the jinn referenced in the story by another name - genies. While they aren't blue and voiced by Robin Williams, the jinn are a concept that have been around since pre-Islamic Arabia. The word means "to conceal", hence the name of my story - The Hidden Ones.  As a science fiction writer, I've developed a fascination with them, just as a concept of beings from another dimension, but ones that influence our world. 
• Ever since I moved to Bahrain as a child, there has always been some degree of unrest on the island. Sometimes, it was just sporadic demonstrations and riots in villages, where the local Shiite population comprise a persecuted majority that face employment, educational and religious discrimination. After the Arab Spring picked up, the unrest in Bahrain swelled. When one of the iconic monuments on the island, an elevated Pearl statue in the center of a main roundabout, became a focal point for demonstrations, the government tore it down. The removal affected me to a surprising degree - it was part of the landscape of the island in my mind, removed by a series of unanticipated, cascading events. It gave me the idea of an unchangeable, unseen force on the island, unmarred by politics and sectarian conflicts - a jinni who impacts each of my characters in a different way, depending on their role in this new climate. 
  
• Kamel, my main character, is torn between the growing modernization on the island of Bahrain and the conservative forces trying to turn back the clock. Part of that stemmed from my own multicultural upbringing. Both American and Arab, I always felt like an interloper for both cultures - never entirely one or the other. More of a spectator - like Kamel with his camera.
  
• ​On a lighter note - the climactic scene where the riot breaks out near the school is based on a real event at the British school I went to in Bahrain. We were summoned into the gym, some calm and some panicking, only unlike the story, we all finished the day and went back to class. It inspired some vivid memories, however - particular our school's headmaster (principal, for American readers), who scowled at us as though warning us not to panic. And so we didn't. ​

​Hope you read and enjoyed it. With a few more science fiction and magical realism stories in progress (or out on submission), I'm hoping that more opportunities for publication are around the corner. Watch this space!