“Historically, pandemics have forced humans to break with the past and imagine their world anew. This one is no different. It is a portal, a gateway between one world and the next. We can choose to walk through it, dragging the carcasses of our prejudice and hatred, our avarice, our data banks and dead ideas, our dead rivers and smoky skies behind us. Or we can walk through lightly, with little luggage, ready to imagine another world. And ready to fight for it.”

• Arundhati Roy, “The Pandemic is a Portal”, Financial Times

It’s been a while since my last post and the world has changed in so many ways – a pandemic, and now a growing movement to address racial injustices and police brutality. I fully support the latter, while remaining anxious about the former. A second wave is likely coming as we reopen businesses and let our guard down – even if the protests (which are necessary) weren’t underway. These are uncertain, eventful times. It’s a time of reckoning and reflection. This pandemic has laid all our failings bare – our economic inequalities, our racism, our disregard for the environment, our treatment of animals and our relationships with each other.

This pandemic has made me examine my own priorities, and I hope it has for others as well. I’m luckier than most – I have a secure government job that allows me to work from home. I have my health and freedom. I’m keeping a low profile and practicing social distancing. I’ve had my stresses as well – a family member got sick with Covid and took eight weeks to recover. I have family on the other side of the world and it feels powerless to be so far away from them. But we can talk and remain connected through technology, and I know this will end. I’ll see my family and friends again.
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On the writing front, this pandemic has made me very productive. With fewer distractions and competing priorities, I’ve had plenty of time after work to focus on my latest novel and keep the wheels turning. I’ve seen a lot of posts on social media from other writers who are too stressed and overwhelmed to be productive writers – and while I can empathize, I told myself at the start of the lockdown that I wasn’t going to be consumed by outside forces beyond my control. I can’t control the terrible stories in the news, but I can do my part to socially distance – and to channel my energy into writing. If anything, this pandemic has become fuel for new ideas. I can escape into other, better worlds and use stories to grapple with the issues affecting us now.
An update from the last few months:

1. I finished the first draft of my third novel, Patronage. It’s now out with several beta readers, who are providing some excellent feedback. I’m really proud of this one, even though there’s more editing to do. It’s fast-paced, with colorful characters and vivid settings, but also carries some themes that I think will resonate with a lot of readers – independence in an increasingly closed world, our addiction to the internet and the proliferation of misinformation and propaganda. I’m excited to dive back into edits, starting next week.
2. One of my short stories has been picked up by the Magazine for Fantasy and Science Fiction (F&SF). I’m thrilled – it’s one of my favorite sci fi journals, one I’ve subscribed to for years, and I can’t wait to see it in print. Once I know when it’ll appear, I’ll devote a separate blog post to the story, which is a very personal one drawn from my time in Bahrain.

 
These are difficult times, but it’s important to hold on to your purpose, to lean onto the things that anchor you. For me, writing is my anchor. It gives me joy and helps me make sense of the world – and imagine other ways the world could be. Whatever else is going on, I plan to keep writing. 

When you first get a book deal, a number of things happen. You dance around the house, pop open a bottle of champagne, and, still humming with joy, dive into less glamorous activities, like paperwork and contract details. There’s often a significant waiting period between the moment you get “the call” (mine was on April Fool’s Day, of all days) and when you can officially share the announcement with family, friends and the wider world. It’s a wonderful moment, when people who’ve been following your writing journey for years finally hear that your dreams are becoming reality. And, of course, they have questions:

• Is your book going to be at my nearest Barnes and Noble?
• Did you design your cover?
• When does your book come out?
• What do you mean “in a year”? Is that normal?
• No, seriously, a WHOLE YEAR?

Most people who aren’t in the writing community are surprised by the realities of publishing. I certainly was, before I started attending writer’s conferences and engaging with fellow authors. Since my first novel, The Sentient, found a home with Flame Tree Press, I’ve found myself answering the same questions over and over again. As a result, I’ve decided to put together the most common questions I’m asked about the process to publication, along with the answers that may surprise.

(Caveat: this post is concerned primarily with traditional publishing, either through a Big Five house or smaller indie publisher. Self-publishing has a different process with different timelines and challenges)

Congrats! When will your book hit the shelves?
A few months after I announced my book deal, some family friends asked me if I could bring a few copies to a Thanksgiving dinner. They were shocked to learn that my book wasn’t going to be out for another year, and that there wasn’t even a cover to share. But if you’re going the traditional publishing route, this is the norm. In fact, a year is the minimum timeframe between your contract getting signed to your book being released. For many Big Five imprints, the release date could be as far as two years out.
Why is this the case? A lot of things need to happen before a book is ready to go to print. There are developmental edits between the author and the editor, a process that can take many months, depending on what kind of changes are needed. The book’s assigned editor may want entire characters removed, scenes rewritten, plot elements restructured. Then, there’s the more detailed copy edits, to check for grammatical issues and typos. Books need to be sent to production, where Advanced Reader Copies (ARCs) are created and sent out to early reviewers. There’s marketing and promotion. And between all of this, yours is not the only book the publisher is working on. Editors and other publishing employees are busy people, juggling multiple books at different stages of development. All of this takes time – and patience.

Where can I find your book? Will it be at B&N, my local bookstore, etc.?
No clue, especially ahead of release. Online ordering is straightforward, but physical distribution is something that the publisher’s sales team manages with distributors. All books have to fight for space on the shelf – both with other new releases and more established titles. Big Five publishers will have more access to bookstores, while smaller, indie publishing houses may not get their books everywhere.
I don’t know exactly where my book will end up – but social media is full of authors wandering into a bookstore and discovering, to their joy, their own work on the shelf. If I find The Sentient out in the wild, expect the same!

How much control do you have over the book cover, design, book blurb, etc.?
If a book is self-published, the author has full creative control over their cover design and other aspects of the book – at their own expense. With traditional publishing, a team at the publishing house will design the book cover. It is, however, a collaborative process between the team and the author. The author may make suggestions or share ideas for the cover and will have a chance to give input before it’s finalized. Publishers want their authors to be happy and will work with them as much as possible to reach a shared vision. At the end of the day, however, if both parties can’t get on the same page, the publisher will make decisions based on what they think is best for the book’s success. They are professionals, and know what works and what doesn’t.
In my case, my publisher came out with a cover that I LOVED, and they also incorporated feedback that my agent and I gave during the process. The end result is a much better cover than I could ever have come up with, even after years of living and breathing my novel.

Are you going on a book tour?
Book tours are not the norm for a debut author and are becoming less prevalent in general. They’re more likely to happen when you have a big-name author with a high-profile book from a big publishing house, but for the average author, they’re not the best way to move sales. With so many virtual options to promote and learn about new books (virtual blog tours, social media, Goodreads, etc.), it makes less sense to spend the time and money traveling around the country to sell a book. An author is more likely to do local events, such as a reading and signing at a neighborhood bookstore, especially when they have personal and professional obligations to deal with. Which brings me to my last question…
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When are you quitting your job?
I can’t tell you how many people, at work and beyond, ask me this question out of the gate. Don’t get me wrong, it would be wonderful to wake up every morning and have the entire day to just WRITE. But writers who make enough money to focus on their projects full-time are the exception, not the norm. Especially with new authors – there’s that occasional success story of a six-figure book deal on a debut, but most new authors earn MUCH smaller advances, or no advance at all. Publishing is risky and new authors are unproven. And for more established authors, it still takes a lot of sales and growing readership before it becomes economically sound to quit that dreaded day job.
Even a six-figure advance, impressive as it may sound, will only get you so far. Here’s why – you have to earn off that advance before seeing additional revenue from book sales. So, if your advance is $1,000.00, you need to earn that much in author royalties (a percentage of the book’s price) against that advance before additional royalty earnings kick in. If that advance is for multiple books, that could take some time. It could also never earn out, meaning that you, the author, don’t earn any more money from sales and may have a disappointed publisher. Your next advance could be lower, as a result. There are no guarantees in publishing and a lot of uncertainty, which makes it smart to hang on to a steady paycheck as long as possible – even if it’s hard to work a day job, live your life and find time to write that next novel.  
So in short, I won’t be quitting my day job any time soon. If and when I do, that’ll be announced here to much fanfare and popping of champagne corks!
Any other questions? Feel free to leave them in the comments.

I can finally share some incredible news, years of hard work and perseverance in the making… I HAVE A BOOK DEAL!
My science fiction novel, The Sentient, will be published by Flame Tree Press in June 2020. It’s the first full-length novel I wrote, I’m incredibly proud of it, and thrilled beyond words that it’s going to be out in the world.
It’s surreal. So much came before this – the idea, the first draft, editing, rewriting, more editing, conferences, pitches, rejection, finding a literary agent, revising the novel again, spending an agonizing year on submission with more rejections… and here we are. A moment I’ve dreamed about for much of my life, but one I never fully trusted to happen. There are no guarantees in publishing, after all. Writers remind ourselves of that constantly, to brace for the next round of setbacks and rejection.
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Only days before I got “the call” from my literary agent, I was talking to a friend about being on submission. It was approaching a year, and we’d had this same conversation many times before.
“Anything new with your book?” she asked.
“Still on sub. Another editor passed, but it’s still out with others.”
“Oh, bummer. Well, I’m sure you’ll hear good news soon.”
Normally, I just nodded at the usual words of encouragement, but this time, I was in a more resigned state of mind. I told her that I had started to accept the fact that The Sentient, my first book, may never be published. That it just may not be the right book to find the right publisher at the right time, and I’d have to put my faith in my next novel.
One day later, I got “the call.” On April Fool’s Day, of all days. I knew it wasn’t a prank – a person’s publishing dreams aren’t prank material. When I heard the news, my heart pounded and a strange sensation followed, of a weight being lifted from my chest. I had an offer for a book deal! It was finally happening. It felt surreal but right at the same time - a moment I had imagined in my head for a long time, and here I was. 
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Of course, I couldn’t just blast the news out to the world. Many steps follow that life-changing call – contract negotiations, following up with other publishers, signatures and announcements. If there’s one truism about the traditional publishing route, it’s that patience is key.
Patience, and perseverance. At each stage in the publishing process, there’s always a new ladder to climb. Take my last two years... after I finished my novel, all my energy was focused on getting a literary agent. Once I signed with an agent, I was overjoyed… but soon, my mind shifted to a new source of anxiety – whether the book would sell. Now that it’s sold, I have a new tier of anxieties:

• Will it be successful?
• Will it be successful enough for a series?
• What kind of reviews will I receive?
• Will my next book sell after this one?

And so on. The challenges and doubts never go away, no matter what stage you are at in the writing process. There will always be new hurdles, new highs and lows. The rejection never stops, the setbacks don’t evaporate into a fog of writing bliss. That’s why perseverance and resilience are so critical in this business… along with the ability to celebrate those moments of success.
For those of you on a similar path, at whatever stage... keep writing, and never give up!

One of my short stories, The Hidden Ones, has been accepted for the April edition of The Write Launch! You can read this magical realism story set in Bahrain, here:
​https://thewritelaunch.com/2018/03/the-hidden-ones/. 

​Once again, I'm skipping with joy at another turning point in my writing career - publishing a short story! Like my literary agent search, I went through the usual ups and downs with a number of my short stories - submissions, rejections, rinse and repeat. But I kept at it, polished my stories in places where they needed work, and got smarter about where and how to submit. And finally, a breakthrough. 

​This particular story is especially rewarding to publish, given how personal it is. Most of my writing is straight science fiction - spaceships, future technology, parallel universes. The Hidden Ones is more immediate, drawing from Middle Eastern folklore and my own upbringing in Bahrain. 

​As a result, I thought I'd share a few personal details behind this story:

• ​If you grew up in the West, you have probably heard of the jinn referenced in the story by another name - genies. While they aren't blue and voiced by Robin Williams, the jinn are a concept that have been around since pre-Islamic Arabia. The word means "to conceal", hence the name of my story - The Hidden Ones.  As a science fiction writer, I've developed a fascination with them, just as a concept of beings from another dimension, but ones that influence our world. 
• Ever since I moved to Bahrain as a child, there has always been some degree of unrest on the island. Sometimes, it was just sporadic demonstrations and riots in villages, where the local Shiite population comprise a persecuted majority that face employment, educational and religious discrimination. After the Arab Spring picked up, the unrest in Bahrain swelled. When one of the iconic monuments on the island, an elevated Pearl statue in the center of a main roundabout, became a focal point for demonstrations, the government tore it down. The removal affected me to a surprising degree - it was part of the landscape of the island in my mind, removed by a series of unanticipated, cascading events. It gave me the idea of an unchangeable, unseen force on the island, unmarred by politics and sectarian conflicts - a jinni who impacts each of my characters in a different way, depending on their role in this new climate. 
  
• Kamel, my main character, is torn between the growing modernization on the island of Bahrain and the conservative forces trying to turn back the clock. Part of that stemmed from my own multicultural upbringing. Both American and Arab, I always felt like an interloper for both cultures - never entirely one or the other. More of a spectator - like Kamel with his camera.
  
• ​On a lighter note - the climactic scene where the riot breaks out near the school is based on a real event at the British school I went to in Bahrain. We were summoned into the gym, some calm and some panicking, only unlike the story, we all finished the day and went back to class. It inspired some vivid memories, however - particular our school's headmaster (principal, for American readers), who scowled at us as though warning us not to panic. And so we didn't. ​

​Hope you read and enjoyed it. With a few more science fiction and magical realism stories in progress (or out on submission), I'm hoping that more opportunities for publication are around the corner. Watch this space!

I’ve just started watching HBO’s Westworld and one episode in, I’m already unnerved by the casual violence against the non-humanoid, female characters in the titular, interactive park where men (and women) can enact their fantasies.

That’s the point, of course. The show intends to provoke, and has deployed the usual defenses in the wake of criticism: violence is a part of human nature, and we’re exploring how humans would behave in a situation where they could act out their worst premises on a sub-caste of robots, made to be as human as possible. It’s a great and interesting premise, but as with many shows with interesting premises, I keep questioning the intent of the creators – are they really trying to make viewers self-reflect on the normalization of gendered violence? Or are the sexualized beatings and rapes there to pander to the worst impulses of viewers? To shock and even titillate? (The likely answer, I think, is a little bit of both.)

I wrestled with this question on my own first novel. In the middle of the story, a group of young women experience a horrific, terrifying act of violence at the hands of a futuristic religious cult. It makes sense in the context of the world I created. It gave important insight into a character’s behavior and motivations. But I agonized over the scene, and how I wrote it, many times over, asking if it had to be there.

I kept it, but in the process of finishing my novel (and reading countless rape and torture scenes in other works of fiction), I’ve come up with a list of questions I ask myself when violence of any kind creeps into my stories.
(Note: I’m focusing on sexualized violence against women in particular, but my comments can be applied to any kind of violence in fiction.)
(Second note: If you watch Game of Thrones, House of Cards spoilers are coming!)
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1.       Does the rape/act of violence tell us something we don’t already know?
 
This was my main problem with Sansa’s rape in Game of Thrones (yes, we’re already on Game of Thrones) , and why I suspect it upset so many other viewers. We know that Westeros is a violent, cruel place where women are chattel, to be used and abused by men as property. We know that Ramsay Bolton, Sansa’s rapist, is a violent psychopath. We know that Sansa has suffered and accumulated plenty of motivation for revenge when her opportunity strikes. Her rape, as a result, tells us nothing we don’t already know about this world or the people in it. It feels gratuitous, an ending scene designed to shock and trigger the “can-you-believe-what-happened” conversations at the water cooler the next day.
 
The only thing it potentially changes is giving another character, Theon Greyjoy, a reason to take a stand against Ramsay. But that in itself left a bad taste in my mouth. The camera pans away from Sansa as her new husband is raping her to a close-up of Theon’s horrified, tearful face: a woman’s suffering triggers a man’s redemption arc. Something that could have been done a hundred other ways.
 
Compare that approach to Mad Max: Fury Road, a movie that was rightfully credited as being a great feminist action movie. The plot has a runaway general helping a group of sex slaves escape from bondage. It would have been INCREDIBLY easy for George Miller to throw in a rape scene in a flashback. Play to our emotions and make us see what the women went through.
 
But he didn’t. We see evidence of their escape. We see their elderly female caregiver killed when Immortan Joe discovers the loss of his ‘property’ (illustrating how patriarchy classifies women as ‘rapeable’ and ‘disposable’). We see the women discard their chains, that one of them is pregnant. We get the idea. The movie establishes the stakes, then moves on into the business of the plot. George Miller may have done this for pacing reasons rather than feminist ones – at the end of the day, he’s an action director trying to move the action forward – but the result is a better movie. If the Game of Thrones creators had directed it, we probably would have been treated to a protracted, graphic mass rape, like the equally unnecessary scene in Craster’s Keep.
 
2.       Is the act of violence being used to give a character motivation or depth? Does it have to?

In many cases, I believe that sexual assaults and torture scenes get thrown into narratives due to lazy or inexperienced writing. Violence is an easy way to give a character a troubled past and a motive.

There’s the “women in refrigerator” trope, where a male character is galvanized into action when a woman he cares about is raped or killed. This has been a staple in superhero stories and television for years (see: Lost, the Marvel universe). Alternately, there’s the “empowered” woman character who first must be taken down a notch by a horrific event before regaining control. A good example of the latter is House of Cards, when the powerful, unflappable Claire Underwood comes face to face with a man who raped her in college. The reveal seems to have two purposes: to show a vulnerable side to Claire and also to create a decision-point for her husband, President Frank Underwood, to determine whether to prioritize his relationship or his politicking.

I’m not saying it’s always a bad idea or sexist to have an assault happen in a story. Depending on the type of story it is, it may be necessary and powerful to show the impact of sexual violence on a character. But consider why it is there. Is there another, more creative way to give a character motivation or a compelling backstory? Is it there because it’s shocking, dramatic and convenient?  
 
3.       Are there any downstream ramifications, or is it a one-off event that never gets brought up again?

Another sign that there are better ways to develop a character: the rape/assault happens but has no long-term ramifications for the character arc or narrative. Game of Thrones is an obvious, repeat offender here – Cersei is raped by her own brother and the incident is not only never brought up again, it seems to have no bearing on their future interactions.
In contrast, British shows such as Happy Valley and Broadchurch have centered storylines around a single rape, but in a thoughtful, nuanced way. The actual assaults are not shown in a way that could be sexualized - they are off-camera and unambiguously horrifying. The ramifications are felt throughout the show and the long-term effects on the victims, their relationships and lives, are shown.
 
The common defense I hear from people I discuss this with in real life, and see often in the comments section of any article that touches the issue, is that these shows are just trying to be “realistic.” That’s how things were back then, I hear in defense of Game of Thrones (and the originating A Song of Ice and Fire series), a fantasy world with dragons and ice zombies, albeit one with a clear European medieval influence. We’re being uptight or living in a fantasy, the implication goes, if we have a problem with ubiquitous violence against women in our books, on our screens and in the theater.
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But if you’re going to justify rape for realism’s sake, the other side of the coin better be present – a realistic depiction of the after-effects, and how it drives characters and subsequent events in the story. And it had better serve the story in a meaningful way, not as a crutch to elicit easy emotions from a reader or shock them into engagement.

Two weeks ago, I accepted an offer of representation from Naomi Davis at Bookends Literary Agency. It's taken me a while to post this here, mainly because I've been consumed by a combination of work and a new focus: revising my novel based on Naomi's wonderful, expert feedback!

​I could not be more thrilled. I spent several days after the offer in a fog, finally in a place I had dreamed of being in for over a year. Like many aspiring writers, I had endured my share of form rejections throughout the querying process, as well as a few full manuscript requests that didn't turn into offers. I just wrote on this blog about continuing to believe in yourself and endure through rejection but the truth this, there does reach a point where you wonder... am I just not quite good enough? Am I just going to come up short? After all, fantastic writers like John Kennedy Toole never saw their work published.. and I'm never going to write anything on the level of Confederacy of Dunces. 

​But it's with good reason that others in the writing community say to persist and not give up. A literary agent invests a tremendous amount of time upfront on clients, as I am now seeing firsthand. They won't take on a project unless they truly love it and believe in it. The trick is finding the right agent at the right time. It's hard. It takes research, energy and a thick skin. But with persistence and luck, it can happen.

What the Martian writer gets right and wrong with his latest protagonist
As an Arab-American science fiction reader, I felt a mixture of excitement and apprehension upon hearing that Artemis, Andy Weir’s novel set on the Moon, would have a Saudi Arabian female heroine. Apprehension at the many ways to get such a character wrong, but excitement at the wealth of potential that could come from the idea of Arab women, too often constrained in fiction by present-day realities, living a different life in a near-future lunar colony.

Though it tries, Artemis does not realize that potential.

Before I focus on what went wrong, I want to give credit where credit is due. It would have been easy for Andy Weir to stay in his comfort zone and write another white, male character like Mark Watney, the jokey botanist MacGyver hero of the Martian. And in the end, Weir basically wrote that same character, who seems more and more like a stand-in for Weir’s dad-humor, but with a different place of birth and gender.

However, I would rather live in a world where writers like Weir attempt to tackle characters with different backgrounds from their own, even if they fail. When writers get it right, it means stories with richer worlds and voices. When they get it wrong, readers can analyze where they missed the mark.

Artemis’ heroine, Jasmine “Jazz” Bashara, moved to the moon at a young age with her Saudi Arabian father. An intelligent but underachieving smuggler, she drinks, swears, and has sex outside of marriage. Having grown up in Saudi Arabia with a mixed Arab and American heritage, I did appreciate seeing a more rebellious Arab woman who rejects some, but not all, elements of her upbringing. And it made sense in Artemis – on the diverse, pioneer setting of the Moon, the rules that would have constrained Jazz in Riyadh would not apply to the same degree.

In the age of choice validation and France’s head scarf ban, I get frustrated by the shyness of Western feminism in critiquing the purity-focused restrictions on women in the Middle East. Since some women “choose” the hijab, that apparently makes it empowering, ignoring the social pressures and belief systems that often drive that choice. But not all Arab women choose the traditions pushed upon them, and some actively resist it. For that reason, I always welcome female Arab characters that don’t fit the cookie-cutter image of the content, veiled woman, nor the one-dimensional victim of male dominance.

Despite these positives, however, it’s clear that Andy Weir, like many male writers before him, doesn’t know how to write women. I read an article before the book’s release in which Weir admitted that he found the idea of writing from a woman’s perspective intimidating, more so, apparently, than tackling story structure, pacing and the hard but accessible science that made The Martian a success story.  He allegedly asked the women in his life for their feedback on writing from a feminine perspective. I don’t know if these female critique partners told him what they thought he wanted to hear or if he just didn’t process their input, but somehow, he ended up with Jazz Bashara.

As I alluded to before, Jazz has the same voice and adolescent sense of humor as Mark Watney. She describes the domed shapes of the lunar city as resembling “a set of boobs.” When a character asks about a package she’s carrying, she replies, “Porn. About your mom.” Her descriptions of herself are highly sexualized. “I undressed faster than a drunk prom date,” she narrates at one point. What woman describes herself that way, more less a woman raised in Saudi culture?

But Nadia! you may counter, I thought you wanted characters that don’t conform to the usual tropes and stereotypes. Why couldn’t a 26-year-old Saudi woman have the personality and sense of humor of a 14-year-old boy?

She could, but it doesn’t feel authentic or plausible the way this character was written. There are stereotypes, and there are realities in how we are socialized and how our experiences drive the way we interact with the world. Jazz treats the mostly male supporting characters the way a man would – she trades barbs and insults, with none of the usual caution or filtering that marks female socialization. She didn’t have to be a demure doormat. She could be tough and self-deprecating. But any type of female character is still shaped by the reality of the world we live in – the socialization women experience, the real risks of violence and being overpowered by men – and as a result, Jazz’s reactions and behavior are never entirely believable.
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Issues with characterization aside, there are many elements of Artemis that still make it worth reading. The lunar city, with its diverse inhabitants and social structure, is a fascinating, fully realized setting. The details of an imagined life on the moon kept me engaged throughout a conventional heist-gone-wrong plot. But for his next novel, if Weir wants to uphold the good intentions of writing diverse characters, he needs a combination of thorough homework, better understanding of characterization, and learning how to write in a perspective other than his own. If he puts as much effort into understanding women of all backgrounds as he does with thinking through the mechanics of the scientific obstacles that his characters must solve, he’ll do fine.

Anyone who has waded into the turbulent waters of a writing career – that first finished novel, a short story that’s been workshopped to satisfaction – has experienced the frustration that comes with submitting your work. The thrill of hitting “send,” the unbearable wait, the warm thrill of a response in your inbox. And then, rejection. Lots of it. Sometimes, mechanical, impersonal form responses, saying that your work was “not quite what we’re looking for at this time” or “not a perfect fit for our agency.” Some are more encouraging, praising the writing or elements of the story that consumed over a year of your life, but ultimately passing on that elusive representation or decision to publish. In either case, you remain unpublished, left to go down your query list and try again. You hit send, filled with a mixture of hope and tempered caution, bracing for another round of punishment.

As I sit here on my couch, recovering from ACL surgery (the end result of a ski accident over Thanksgiving weekend), the agony of the wait is only amplified. While I actively query my first science fiction novel, The Sentient, to literary agents, I’m also working to get several short stories published in journals or short story contests. I research, I use Query Tracker and Submittable to track my submissions, and I obsessively check my email (junk mailbox included) for replies several times a day. All in the hope of that first break.

The past year hasn’t made it easy. In addition to the ACL tear, I spend months nursing my elderly dog, before bringing a veterinarian to the house to help her pass peacefully. My day job consumed my evenings and weekends, I traveled once a month and dealt with an unexpected family death. Writing became a burden and refuge, something done in small bursts – an hour grabbed between errands, an idea scribbled on a plane to DC. Finding time to write is another topic, but querying in chaos has equipped me with new skills for dealing with the other side of the process – handling those rejections as you try to get your work out into the world.

1.       Research, Organize and Strategize: For both novels and short stories, plan your submissions and pick a top tier to submit your work to. You will avoid wasting your time and your target’s time if you do your homework and only submit to places seeking your genre. If the agent’s submission guidelines don’t include fantasy, don’t query for your fantasy epic. Don’t assume that your story will be the one exception. Spend your time and energy on people who are seeking out your type of writing. Create a list of potential agents or magazines, and work down the list.
2.       Embrace the Small Victories: There are rejections, and there are rejections. Although every declination will sting, look for positivity in those rejections that let you know you’re on the right track. I waited on pins and needles for weeks on a short story submission. When the editors responded to tell me that they liked the story and were putting in their final list of consideration for the next issue, my heart fluttered. I still knew the chances of rejection were high and sure enough, I received the notice a month later than my story failed to make it in the next issue. But it eased my doubts about my writing, that nagging voice that told me I wasn’t good enough. I had something in that story, and it was only a matter of finding the right publication at the right time. A million different potential reasons lie behind every rejection – something similar was published the week before, an agent has a similar story in their portfolio, the editor just wasn’t passionate about the characters – but “not good enough for publication” wasn’t one of them.
3.       Seek Learning Opportunities in Rejection: What happens if the only rejections you receive are form rejections, without any encouragement? It could be a matter of not submitting to enough places, but after a certain timeframe, the problem may be with the work itself. I learned this lesson during the first round of submissions for my novel. After a ratio of twenty rejections to one full request (not horrible, I was told, but a red flag), I decided to take my opening to a writer’s workshop. While the group liked the prose, the all agreed on some fundamental issues with my opening pages – those crucial pages that need to hold an agent’s attention. I also used writer’s conferences and editing services to get further feedback on my manuscript. While editing services can be expensive, there are many ways to get constructive feedback that don’t dig into the wallet. Look for free online critique groups or local writer’s association events for chances to get feedback on your work, by people who share your love of writing.
a.       The results: During my second wave of querying, I have received two full manuscript requests, although both agents ultimately passed. My short story submissions have shown similar kernels of progress. Form rejections have been replaced by personalized responses, notices of making the final cut and encouragements to send other pieces of writing. I’m still querying and waiting.
4.       Move Forward: Pick your top list of agents (or journals), send your work to a reasonable number (five to twenty as a start) and then walk away. Work on something else. This is easier said than done, but working on that next short story or plot mapping a new novel will make the weeks (and months) until a response more bearable. In addition to keeping your mind occupied, continuing to write will create new opportunities for publication, the chance to try again if the current story fails to publish. Non-writing time is equally important – go on a hike, meet friends for a drink, take a weekend trip. Live life, with the people that matter. To quote a favorite Rilo Kiley song, “keep the wind at your back and the sun on your face.” Any chance encounter or adventure could lead to a new story, the one that sticks.
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Each rejection, I tell myself, is another step towards acceptance, on a tough road that often seems to take more than it gives back. But it does give back, in countless lessons of craft, resilience and self-belief, in embracing the joy of writing and being read, with or without a publishing byline. Of course, when that acceptance comes, whether an offer of representation or a credit, a new road opens, with its own bumps and forks. All the more reason to learn the art of enjoying the ride.